Friday, July 07, 2006 @ 11:15 PM
HALLELUJAH!
Oh my gosh. I can't believe how God really is working in my life, in OUR lives! :D
On Monday, we had MCG with Zhonghua group. None of our contacts turned up, only Zhonghua's. Then I thought, "No! This should not be happening!" So today, I had another MCG. Again, no contacts turned up, but a un-retained convert came and now is closer with us. (:
Anyway- I was pretty upset actually. I held two MCGs, but none came! Why?
BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL!
Tomorrow, my caregroup will be having 3 visitors! One guy and two girls. One guy and one of the girls said they want to receive Christ! Another one is very attached to our caregroup member! Also, we connected back two of our people and we have one backslider coming back! Oh my gosh! This is amazing!
God, I just am so amazed by you. I know not what to say other than "thank You".
And oh. Just a little thing. Was late for PM 'cause of MCG, but God spoke to me within that short time of worship. While I was worshipping, I was distrupted a few times by the guitar. I was wondering what was happening. Did the guitar string break or something? Or did the guitarist strummed wrongly? Why was the guitar producing off-key notes?
I opened my eyes to watch Marcus play as I was very distrupted. As the off-key tone rang in my ears- the guitar was perfectly fine and Marcus was strumming all right! There was no way that sound came from it. I wondered why! I continued worshipping and then the sound stopped.
While I was sitting on the bus one my way home, I kept thinking about the off-key tone. I asked God, why was I hearing things? I knew it wasn't hearing problem. I knew I heard it even though I knew Marcus nor the guitar produced that sound. It must besome kind of divine sound that only I could here, and God clearly wants to speak to me. So I kept asking God. And God replied.
And I repented.
Judgemental spirit. This is the spirit that stopped my group from growing. Especially my school. While worshipping, why was I so distrupted by the music? Because I was judging the music already. I judged it. If it was good, I will worship well. It it's not, I won't. This is the spirit I had with people. I often judge people without realising it. I was shocked at first when God told me. But I prayed and reflected, and yes, I see those times where I had been judgemental. I acknowldeged and repented.
God told me that this was the same spirit I had with people. Not just people from the church- but non-believers as well. I judge them by their appearance, character and CCA to see if they are "available" to serve God or not. God said that He will use ANYONE and EVERYONE. I shouldn't judge! I should accept them as who they are and accept them as people that I want to bring to God and not judge if they really are going to help extend the Kingdom or not. Because, I may never know that nerdy-looking and slightly overweight girl might just be a pastor next time(I'm just giving example). I repented for my judgemental spirit and asked God for the spirit of acceptance.
And the confirmations came in.
How divine it is, my God! It's so amazing You still Bless a wretch like me!
Oh God- You are great.
Faithful is Thy name!(: